I see Red

well .... i see red.

the last time i saw Ms. Red was on 24 August 2011. perasaan? bercampur-baur. I was hoping to reach that 2 year anniversary without Ms. Red but ... it came early. A few days prior to seeing Ms Red, I was not feeling well. fever, severe tonsilitis, migraine and a string of other ailments. I had an instinct that Ms Red would probably think it was time to pay me a visit ... and told my doctor about it as I felt a sharp pain at the left side of my abdomen. She gasped when she learned that Ms Red has not showed up since giving birth although I think there's nothing surprise about it since I breastfeed my baby exclusively and each nursing session is less than 3-4 hours apart.

since she had showed up ... i'll be expecting to see her on regular basis after this. sedih bcoz i miss the reciting verses from Al-Quran when I express my breastmilk for little button or masa nak tidurkan dia ... kena be mindful to baca dalam hati je lah.

An ending and an opening

Today Montey and I took the day off. kitaorang send dulu little button to school first, had brunch at our regular place and then off we went to settle a few things berkaitan dgn rumah. Sempat jugak detour ke waroeng ayam penyet for lunch and shoe shopping for both of us dalam sibuk-sibuk tu. 

Esok insya Allah, bermulanya a new chapter for our little family. May Allah have mercy on us and grant us patience. Amin.

 "Ya Allah, aku memohon petunjuk daripadaMu dengan ilmuMu dan aku memohon ketentuan daripadaMu dengan kekuasaanMu dan aku memohon daripadaMu akan limpah kurniaanMu yang besar. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa dan Engkau Maha Mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui dan Engkaulah Yang Maha Mengetahu segala perkara yang ghaib. Ya Allah, seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawasanya urusan ini (sebutkan..) adalah baik bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, takdirkanlah ia bagiku dan permudahkanlah serta berkatlah bagiku padanya da seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawa urusan ini (sebutkan..) mendatangkan keburukan bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, maka jauhkanlah aku daripadanya dan takdirkanlah kebaikan untukku dalam sebarang keadaan sekalipun kemudian redhailah aku dengannya".

(sebutkan urusan yang dimaksudkan di tempat yang bertitik).

Gray skies

It's that time of the year again ....  when the skies are gray and the sun hardly shines. Dirty clothes are piling high ... even though I am still on leave and most of the time at home nurturing my little button ... the weather seems to discourage us from doing our laundry and hang them under the sun :(

Need to pay a visit to the nearest laundromat~

La ilaha illa anta, subhanaka, inni kuntu minaz-zalimin

Sunshine, sunshine, where art thou?
I'm hoping you can show yourself soon
I'm getting sick of the darkness
I don't have any more tears
The fear is suffocating
Can this distress be taken away?

O Allah
in Him I trust
I seek help in His Grace
There is no God but He

The tiger within me

*Ini adalah luahan hati semata-mata*

Last week, adalah sorang hamba Allah ni .... macam nak banjer pwincess makan nasi kandaq untuk lunch ... oh berbunga-bungalah hati kan, orang tak semena-mena nak banjer kita. dengan pewot lapa krok krok tu, ku tabahkan hati jua untuk menunggu dengan penuh kesabaran akan ketibaan nasi kandaq yang bakal ditapau oleh si pembonceng motosikal bergelar, X. adalah dalam 35 minit kemudian, datanglah si X membawa bungkusan-bungkusan nasi kandaq ... dia pun distribute pada stakeholders .... oh pwincess sabaq jugak menanti .... sekali .... eh eh! mana nasi kandaq aku wei? rupenye tipah tertipu. hamba Allah tu tak jadi banjer pwincess walaweiiiii .... bengangnye hati ni....tuhan je yang tau ... mase tu mana ade lagi dah makanan kat cafe. sakit tul hati.

seb baik arini, encik mon janji nak lunch dengan pwincess kat kedai nasi kandaq. oh berbunga-bungalah balik kan hati ni. tapi mon kata, pwincess g dulu, book tempat. dia ada meeting and tengah wrap up. ok xpa. pwincess pun jalan lenggang kangkung g kedai tu. singgahlah setiap kedai yang ada sebelum sampai ke kedai nasi kandaq tu ... cuci mata + fill up the time. kaki dah penat ni. pastu dah lelama tu, pwincess pun masuk tunggu mon dalam kedai tu. dapat book satu meja ni. tapi kedai tu mmg penuh dgn manusia tau .... so, sorang-sorang asyik menegur, ada orang tak? finishing ke? pwincess pun jawab, ada orang takpun tak tak, saya belum habis lagi. makin lama, makin stress. mon ni pun satu, cakap la kan, jadi ke tak lunch together ni .... oh stress gile pwincess. tukang lap meja sampai 3 kali datang lap meja .... sah-sah ko nak halau aku yer .... then, tukang senduk lauk nasi kandaq datang tegur, nak order tak? belummmmm .... yang paling tak tahan, tokei kedai datang tanya you mau makan ke tak? kalau minum saja, bungkus sajalah. ramai lagi orang mau pakai meja. pastu siap inde porengge apa kebenda tah lagi dia cakap kat haku.

wahhhhh panas hati aku weiiii.

the tiger within me has woken up.

lepas tu mon sampai. pwincess pun haaa .... tengking setengking-tengkingnya sama encik mon. mase mon tengah q nak amek nasi pwincess, ade 1 kapel dtg tanya ade orang tak .... haaa .... pwincess tengking sama dia .... "ada la orang!!!! kalau tak kenapa saya tunggu sini sorang-sorang?!!!!" terkedu jap dia. then, bile mamak anta teh panas encik mon, main campak je mug tu ... ewah ewahhhh .... memang nak kena la ni. so tu pun haku tengking. haku tengking bukan main-main. siap suh dia letak balik mug tu elok-elok .... lap balik depan mata aku. then ..... tukang lap meja yang sengal tu datang ... oh god ... kitaorang tgh makan ni, dia boleh dtg lap meja untuk sekian kalinya?!!! haa ... silap besar la ko labu .... engkau pun aku tengking baekkkk punye. pwincess cakap, yang sibuk nak lap situ buat hape, situ bukannya kotor pun ... nah, ko lap ni .... bawah mug, bawah pinggan aku tengah makan ni .... haaaa .... dah lama dah haku tak menengking-nengking orang ni .... kalau dapat semangat tengking ni kat opis best jugak ... korang ingat aku ni kelihatan seperti orang kelantan yang manis lemah lembut yer... hah silap besar lah korang .... memang kalau the tiger within me dah bangun .... nahas lah

Arrowhead Chips/Fried Ngaku

Suddenly I feel the urge to make arrowhead chips/fried ngaku.

*pic credit to wendyinkk

My mom bought a few early this year and left them to me to settle (i.e. cook/whatever/etc). I totally have no idea what to do with these ... after much googling, I decided to make arrowhead chips. I totally hate the grating/slicing process, and I cut myself during it but other than that, the chip making process was a good learning experience for me. Honestly, I have never seen anyone making chips at home and in fact, my household never make our own chips ... ever ... so when I finally produced arrowhead chips in my own kitchen, with these 2 hands, boy oh boy, you can't tell how proud I was ... hehe! And the best part is, the chips are to die for!!!! I was actually slapping my niece's fingers from snatching the freshly fried chips everytime I scoop out the chips from the big hot wok. She could not stop munching the tasty chips, really, I tell you...

*pic credit to wendyinkk

Now, now, cepatlahhhh datang Chinese New Year!! Because you can only get these darlings during that time of the year!

stresssss ... rase nak tarik rambut :(

hajat di hati nak hapdet blog pasal cuti-cuti bebaru nih ... tapi alkisahnya, dah berhari-hari lah cuba hapdet tapi internet mcm ampehhhh .... kat opis, mmg dah takyah cakap la kan, takleh nak bukak blog ... guna yes, lembab ... guna unifi lembab ... guna streamyx punnnn lembab. kang lama-lama kalu ... ade yang malas nak hapdet blog camnihhhh